Thank you all for the sweet comments on my last post about my grandfather. It's been a really difficult couple of weeks and it's nice to have so much support from friends, family and the internet.
I'm exhausted. I don't think I've been this exhausted in years. Backing out of Marine Corps was one of the best decisions I've made, and a decision that I'm no longer upset about with the way the last two weeks have gone.
When my mom called me to tell me that my grandfather was in the hospital and not doing so well, I hopped on the first flight to New Jersey the next morning. I was already planning on heading up that weekend, so I just made my way up a day earlier than planned.
The Pilot's sister was getting married and I was in the bridal party. I spent three days in the hospital with my family for between 12 and 15 hours per day. It was exhausting. My grandfather was moved to the hospital's hospice unit on Wednesday and he passed away on Thursday evening. Those 3 days were really, really difficult.
The rest of the week went like this:
Friday - Rehearsal Dinner
Saturday - Wedding
Sunday - Wake
Monday - Funeral
The wedding was beautiful. I tried really hard to have fun. I danced for a little bit, but spent most of the evening being a little bit of a wallflower. Grief is an overwhelmingly powerful emotion and overshadowed any joy that I could feel for the happy couple. I felt terrible. As a bridesmaid, I tried so hard to be cheerful and happy. Everyone understood what was going on, but it was really difficult all the same.
Here's a picture of The Pilot and me on our way to the reception.
So that was last week. The Pilot and I made our way back to DC on Tuesday and after being away for the entire week, it was so.good.to.be.home. I spent the next five days (Wednesday - Saturday) on my feet for 9 hours a day at work and coming home and basically vegetating on the couch.
I haven't worked out in almost 2 weeks. I don't think I've gone that long without exercising in almost 4 years. I'm so grateful to have a day off today. I tried to sleep in, but being awake at 5:45am the last few days, set my internal clock to waking me up at about 8:30am.
I'm excited to get in an easy run today, to do a little cleaning and lounge around the house, maybe see some friends. Lord knows I need it.
So that's that...I have over 500 unread blogs in my BlogLovin' account and there's no way I can catch up on all of them, so let me know what's been going on in the internet world! Hopefully my last two weeks of Radio Silence have come to an end and I'll be back to my regular posting this week.
Cheers <3
I'm exhausted. I don't think I've been this exhausted in years. Backing out of Marine Corps was one of the best decisions I've made, and a decision that I'm no longer upset about with the way the last two weeks have gone.
When my mom called me to tell me that my grandfather was in the hospital and not doing so well, I hopped on the first flight to New Jersey the next morning. I was already planning on heading up that weekend, so I just made my way up a day earlier than planned.
The Pilot's sister was getting married and I was in the bridal party. I spent three days in the hospital with my family for between 12 and 15 hours per day. It was exhausting. My grandfather was moved to the hospital's hospice unit on Wednesday and he passed away on Thursday evening. Those 3 days were really, really difficult.
The rest of the week went like this:
Friday - Rehearsal Dinner
Saturday - Wedding
Sunday - Wake
Monday - Funeral
The wedding was beautiful. I tried really hard to have fun. I danced for a little bit, but spent most of the evening being a little bit of a wallflower. Grief is an overwhelmingly powerful emotion and overshadowed any joy that I could feel for the happy couple. I felt terrible. As a bridesmaid, I tried so hard to be cheerful and happy. Everyone understood what was going on, but it was really difficult all the same.
Here's a picture of The Pilot and me on our way to the reception.
So that was last week. The Pilot and I made our way back to DC on Tuesday and after being away for the entire week, it was so.good.to.be.home. I spent the next five days (Wednesday - Saturday) on my feet for 9 hours a day at work and coming home and basically vegetating on the couch.
I haven't worked out in almost 2 weeks. I don't think I've gone that long without exercising in almost 4 years. I'm so grateful to have a day off today. I tried to sleep in, but being awake at 5:45am the last few days, set my internal clock to waking me up at about 8:30am.
I'm excited to get in an easy run today, to do a little cleaning and lounge around the house, maybe see some friends. Lord knows I need it.
So that's that...I have over 500 unread blogs in my BlogLovin' account and there's no way I can catch up on all of them, so let me know what's been going on in the internet world! Hopefully my last two weeks of Radio Silence have come to an end and I'll be back to my regular posting this week.
Cheers <3
Ah, I wanted to comment but didn't know what to say, really. So I'm just going to say that I'm sending you lots of good thoughts and love!
ReplyDeleteSending you comforting thoughts. I lost my Grandma in August so I know what you are going through.
ReplyDeleteI had to staff a Relay For Life event the day after my grandma died this summer--meaning I was there for 24+ hours with very little sleep. I cried every 5 minutes it seemed, but everyone understood. Grief is definitely overwhelming, but I'm glad you were able to enjoy the wedding in some way!!
ReplyDeleteI had to staff a Relay For Life event the day after my grandma died this summer--meaning I was there for 24+ hours with very little sleep. I cried every 5 minutes it seemed, but everyone understood. Grief is definitely overwhelming, but I'm glad you were able to enjoy the wedding in some way!!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear of your grandfather's passing. I know that this will be a hard time for you. Just know that you and your family are in my thoughts and in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted you to know I'm thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteOk, that is one of my favorite pictures of you guys--which, also, I freaking miss you both! Come visit me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteI love you. That's all. :)
You are lucky to have the pilot and family around to help you through this. I hope the new job is going well and that you are able to enjoy your time off!
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